Dr. Mom, Mrs. Hyde.

Today is a big day for me, I guess.

I found out that I won my first "The Show" award. It should be exciting, since it's my first real advertising award. But instead, I find myself grumbling and mumbling. Because advertising has never been about awards for me. I don't need an ego boost and awards don't really satisfy my need of approval or self-worth. Or maybe, I do.

Maybe I'd be more excited if the actual recognition was for copywriting instead of illustration. Maybe I'd appreciate it more if the Creative Director who worked on it didn't put themself down as 1st copywriter - being they contributed two words. And maybe I'm just a little bit bitter because this certain Creative Director has an ego the size of Texas (judging by my sharp tongue, I'd say the latter is likely).

But what would I do with a "pin" anyways? I'd rather have a picture of my baby decorating my home instead of a wall of awards. He's my real work-of-art. My own creation.

Sigh. Mom or Copywriter? I always find it hard to be both. One's a nurturing, loving caregiver while the other is a blood-sucking mind manipulator. I love being both. But it's two different worlds that should probably never be linked.

In the end, I'd choose my family over any award or job or raise. But today, I guess I get to half-celebrate my success as an evil writer minion. Either way, it's time to pour the libations.

Cheers.